Reflection!!!

Both of them love me, they have been my friends since i was born, they learned as i learned ,their knowledge grew as mine grew, but soon their ways parted. I am talking of two of my friends who have always been with me in happiness,joys,laughter,sorrows,pain and loneliness.I am talking of the angel and devil in me. Whenever i look at the mirror i see reflections of 3 persons, one of me & two miniatures of me .... one wearing a white dress with halo over his head and other in full black with horns.

They both love me and want good of me, but their ways are so different , the devil protects me from getting hurt but makes me a bit selfish ,thus bringing a sense of guilty, the angel on the other hand makes me more vulnerable but brings a sense of happiness. Angel wants me to follow the principles and devil makes me manipulate them. They are always at continuous war in me.

During my childhood angel had a dominance keeping the devil suppressed, but now the devil is resuming his power quite smartly. What kept angel strong during my childhood ? The only answer i get is the "guilt feeling", the devil is now working on getting this feeling out of me. May be angel fought too much to reveal his art of war to devil. Devil knows 'it's never the sins or wrongs that kills or punishes you it's always your conscience that does the work'. The devil is making my conscience clear in every decision i take. An example of extreme state of clear conscience are terrorists ... they have no guilt feeling in killing someone which makes killing an easy process.

I don't know what would happen if the devil becomes dominant. Earlier they both used to argue at the same time and i had to choose between them, but now they have changed their tactics. Angel comes in the morning when my mind is clear of all the thoughts and the devil appears at night when i am a little tired and can easily fall for something and they try to convince me with their views. Man!! i have started to hate them, they irritate me, i just want them to leave ... i don't want black ...neither do i want white i just want other colours. I decide something in the morning and decide something else at night. I just hope either both of them leave me alone or one of them resumes the power soon............